Inspired

My actions are unmeasured
My thoughts are silent explosions
realized by no one
I am like a tree
falling in the forest
no one is around to see it
and i have to wonder:
is this really happening?

An unpurposeful life is empty and arbitrary
unfulfilling and mundane
This experience is weighing me down
like a depression
blanketed beneath these folds
of misunderstanding and unheard deceptions

where did i lose myself?
when did it become ok
to walk so far ahead
or stand so far behind?

I cannot seem to grasp my belonging
days are lost and it suddenly occurred
that day is HERE
and i had previously imagined
that it may never come
does everyone really go through this?
is that relevant?

how do i emote?
how do i feel?
when will it be "right"?

i understand it is not external...
but i don't know that it's internal either
i feel that if someone else could really "see" it
then maybe they could understand

but then there is no one i trust enough to tell

woven into this web