Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Lather, Rinse, Repeat

this space should be able to hold these thoughts for just awhile longer
and so i come here to vent my heart
expose a small window, hoping that a little exposure will help clear things up

everything has been so impulsive... at one moment, running scared..and the next, bold statements being made

but i'm out of it

i need to be out of it

how do i get out of it?

this conundrum

and last night i dreamt that i was being held down and suffocated by unseen forces and i couldn't get out from under it...i screamed...STOP IT, DON'T, PLEASE...and when I was awakened by my own screams I reached for comfort...and found empty space

my heart beating rapidly in my chest, gulping for air...eventually calmed by my own thoughts

i used to fall asleep thinking of you and planning our next encounter
but it hurts me to think of it now
embarrassed by my incapability to provide

focus on you, sarah
focus on your career
focus on your happiness

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