Apocatastasis

Could you hear me if I closed my eyes?
Like a child playing peek-a-boo
Could I make all of this disappear?...into the oblivion of my dreams

A comment on the reality of my situation...I'm avoiding the necessary. It's a lot easier to say what sounds right and to do what feels good. This coccoon of avoidance is nurturing my insanity...keeping me locked in this tenacious cycle of self-depreciating behavior.

I am struggling to live my dream...a shame really, since I created this. Somehow, I've lost my control of choice. Being blindly lead by fear, lonliness and the thought of appearing as a failure.

I'm tired of talking about myself. I want to be out of my head. Out of this.
I want a focus on life, on other people, on healing.

I know this is a phase...a transition...I need to grin and bear it...

I'm just having a moment of restitutional restriction.