promises we can't keep

i think it broke when i heard the news....crushed into tiny pieces...it can't be put back together

my heart felt like it was ripped out of my chest - and your tears were only those for the guilt of admission...not for what you had just done to my heart
because if you cared that much...you would never have done it

this one was going to be perfect...i was sure of that...i KNEW that...but i can only control my actions...and you fucked it up

and since then...i've been lost...lost touch, lost communication, lost heart, lost spark, lost love, lost

i didn't think you would do it...i thought all of that had changed...i thought i was more than that to you

and so i've been punishing myself ever since...because it's my fault...my fault that i let it get to that...and that i said it was okay...when i knew it wasn't...

but the fairytale sounded so good, the momentum was already there and so i stayed on the ride...and everyone else was already on board...and if it ended...then i would just be the joke again...the failure...the fuck up...imperfect...

but that's what this is now...and we're in so deep...i keep saying yes...and my finger is too heavy to let it all go