Confirmation of Life Through Honesty

I had one of the most touching experiences with my father this weekend that has led me to have this feeling of euphoria and completion ever since.

I don't know why...but I had never told my father that he is essentially my idol. I had never shared with him, until yesterday, that I take everything he says as golden and although I don't always follow his advice or completely believe in everything he has to say - I still hold it in very high esteem and dissect it very carefully so I can get everything out of it that is possible.

I have quotations of his that I have been collecting for years and I refer to them now and again if I am in need of inspiration.

Well - yesterday presented the opportunity to share all of this with him. It gave me a chance to express to him how much our relationship means to me and what major affects he has had on my life.

Wow

The moment was amazing - the energy was electric...you see, I always cry when things are extremely emotional for me. I'm not crying because I am sad but because I am touched and the feelings are so intense around that so they come out in tears as well as verbal expression. So there I was..saying what I had always meant to say but never did and crying all the while.

His response was equally moving. As he looked at me with tears forming in his eyes and says, "I don't know where it came from or how it happened exactly, but there is this maturity within you and the way that you have grown over the years has and continues to bring great joy to my life. I am so proud of you and really admire you for the things you do and who you are."

I said, "I love these moments with you, Dad. We should have more of them." And we both smiled a tearful smile and embraced...a little awkwardly because we were sitting in my car in the driveway :)

I leave you with this:

"Life is like a leaf falling from a tree. You can enjoy the ride or fear the landing" --John Worsfold

a.k.a. You get to choose