I'm okay - You're okay

Good things come to those who wait....I think I will live by this motto from now on!
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My 'goodness' as a person has been questioned and since that conversation I have been left to stumble around through my mind to try and understand and justify my actions.

Maybe it is that I am not all that I was before. Things have changed for me in some ways. I feel more exposed and open about who I am and...I like that.
I like the fact that I am secure with myself and that I can have certain experiences that might not be viewed by a majority as 'good'...but I can still feel good about them.

The opinions of my friends matter to me, but they don't decide who I am and I am in no way going to make myself feel negatively about my actions just because of what someone else has a differing opinion on.
It might be 'right' for someone else to not take part in a certain behavior that I do...but it's okay that it's 'right' for me.
We all have different life experiences that allow us to be different from each other and have those behaviors be justified. That's why we can't really hold anything against other people for doing something that we wouldn't do - because if we were in their shoes, we might do the same thing...given that we had all of the same life experiences that they had.

There is something to be said also about having support in your environment that allows you to take part in certain behaviors that you might not otherwise.
For example: Someone that you are close to goes out on the weekend and so, since you want to spend time with them, you go out as well.
That doesn't take away from the fact that we are each responsible for our own decisions in how we behave...however, we are more likely to act a certain way if we have support from others.

So, what I'm trying to say here is that, yeah...I admit that my behavior might not be true to what I wanted for myself at one time - but times change and people change and the decisions and behaviors that go along with space, place and environment change with them....this doesn't make it 'wrong' - it's just different.

We're an adaptable species and the space, place and environment is always changing - and so time is continually changing and so am I....we can't define ourselves indefinitely as we change with each second on every level of our existence