Topic Du Jour

So - *deep breath* - made it through day one...barely....
What a day - big rush at Sem Crowds all day long because only one of the 11 orders was printed when I got to work at 8 this morning...which means that we were cutting the orders as they came off the printer straight through until 2:15...BLAH
But I got off at 3:30 to relax before Econofoods....however, that didn't exactly happen..
And then Econofoods was crazy because I had to actually work ALL night and didn't get to take a break except for lunch and a 20 minute phone conversation with April which covered my two 10 minute breaks...

So - there's my whining for the day!!!!!

Moving on - although - as i'm sure it was gathered from the above - I am VERY exhausted - I do have a poem in me that must come out to be shared with you .... it relates to some things that happened with me today as well as just what I have been learning about life in general...
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Blue Clouds

Moment by moment
as life passes by
as experiences happen
we begin to understand why
we must stop to listen
really hear our inner cry
as well as change our interpretations
like our perception of the sky

when the clouds become the sky
the blue becomes the clouds
our perceptions are shifted
which may cause some doubts

but stick with the feeling of not knowing why
and remember that if we can change something as simple as the sky
then we are certainly capable of changing how we perceive you and I

the effort is great
but the risk is not something to fear
especially if changing that perception means gaining
something so clear
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the thing to understand here is that perception is individual - interpretation is owned by the interpreter....so own it

I am not perfect - I'm trying to understand life and I am scared to death that I might not get it 'right'
I make mistakes - I'm scared to admit that I make them because I want so much to do it 'right'
I am a hypocrite sometimes - I say outloud who I aim to be but I don't always fit the bill

Bottom line though - and I must remind myself....and all of you....

No 'right' exists to get...no 'bill' exists to fit....these are illusions that we live in and we are continuously striving for them although they are invisible and simply just do not exist...not in any kind of true form anyway...
The 'rightness' exists in a way that keeps us aiming because it is supported by society and our social groups...but we must remember that it is not anything that can be fabricated or take shape in any real way...
And so doing it 'wrong' is not some kind of thing to have any real fear about - because when we live in a duality with this bimodal way of thinking and living we only set ourselves up to fall into the 'right' or 'wrong'....

What I'm trying to say - boundaries are our own fabrications and although it is difficult or maybe even impossible to live outside of them in our society...to acknowledge the true invisibilty of them is to somewhat defy them...and in some way step outside of them - which is a step in a direction that allows the individual more freedom just to be.