And another one

What a day - what a day

I had a great talk tonight with April...life seems to become so clear when she is on the receiving end of the conversation - I work so much shit out...what an awesome friend she is!

I did a little experiment today - I didn't call you or text you or anything because
1. I wanted to see if you would call or text me
and
2. I wanted to see what would happen
But I think I picked the wrong day -- because you had a horrible day and horrible things happened to you and you won't share it with me...
Crazy crazy...i can't decide if i regret not being there for you now or if it was a good thing

It infuriates me that you say it doesn't matter or not to worry - you know me -- I care more than I probably should and I worry more than I probably should too...but maybe that's what you want me to be doing right now...or maybe (and more likely) you just want your own space and I should get myself out of your shit like you ask of me...
I have to learn to let go...in so many ways

I am so drained right now that I can barely comprehend my existence -- I think I will head for my bed...it looks so good over there....