Last Call

Today is my last day to be a student at the Philadelphia Center...and to be in Philly for two and a half weeks...I am not sure how I feel about this.

Life has been such a whirlwind the past four months of my life...so much has changed within me and around me, more than I ever expected...

Most of it is hard to put my finger on...I can't really qualify all that is different...I just know that it is.

Life has become more about understanding me - looking and me and holding myself accountable for me but also recognizing what role I play in the world and what that role says about me.

I find it incredibly easy to be me now...I feel like I make my power and I own it, I feel like I understand....

Being without an attachment or someone to always consider in terms of significant other has been an incredible and scary thing for me. I could be with myself, I could look at myself, I could understand myself and my actions...these are things I had never let myself do before.
I think I understand now that these are things that I can do when with someone else...I just didn't know I could, I guess it took the experience to understand that.

I don't know where my life will be when I go back to Iowa tomorrow. My world has changed...how much will it change my relationships with others?

I've learned: You have to be happy with you before you can be happy with anyone or anything else.
My motto: Do you - Be you - Love you....if you do that, everything else will fall into place...